The last moment...

In one way, the last awaiting moment is a tremendous happiness. My brothers fiancée will arrive to Sweden tonight. It have been a very long time that have been a sourt of a waste. A waste of time of not being together. They´ve been apart for ten long months and tonigt, tonight is the night. I´m so happy that this final step is actually almost taken, almost done.

In another way, this time of the year brings me down. Not only me, but me whole family. Yes, we´re all going to be together to celebrate with all the dogs but after this date, my dearest dog, the old one, Ludde, is going to leave us. He´ve been having some problems and diseases that won´t go back to normal. He´s an old beautiful dog that needs to rest, so we´re going to give him that joy. Even though, it´s very difficult and painful for all of us, it´s something that is necessary and a need for  him. He´ve been experienced a lot of pain and he can´t control his needs anymore. His hips are very bad and he have been having lots problems during these last two years. With a spine in my heart, I will try to not to think about it and enjoy every single moment with him. I know he´s going to take care of me whenever he´s up there, but it´s so painful. The decision is terrible, but not for him, for us. It´s the ego of human kind that makes everything too difficult and with lots of pain.

Anyway... I can´t think like this. His body won´t be with us, but his soul will still remain among us. That´s something that´s difficult to keep in mind, but I better get started or my time here back home will be hard.

Monserrat